Can you show me the road leading to yesterday?,
There is absolutely no way to change your past. It is over, gone, a passersby and never to return. the reason why the brighter futures has not come is that you are still holding the ugly past, so. It occupies space were the smiling future would have come and stay, it is true that you are wounded, accused, failed and humiliated etc but you won’t continue like this, Let it go.
See this, (When we are tried of the future, we are attacked by ideas we conquered long ago) Do not look back. Keep going forward. Live your life in the here and now. Forget it. You cannot in no way no how ever change your past. I am sorry to tell you that yesterday has left you and 2020 is about to leave you and you are still grumpy!
There are no time machines to take you back, no magic spell will correct a past mistake, and no genie is going to appear and grant you the wish of changing your past, lift up your eye’s and see far beyond, your future is blessings filled.
The fastest way to move forward in life is not doing more. It starts with stopping the behaviors holding you back. Since you have the same DNA with your maker, you have the capacity to let go of the ugly past.